It was 2010 and my boutique Sassy Shoe was on the edge of existence. I had been trying really hard and doing all the things I could think of to keep Sassy Shoe afloat.Continue reading
Hello lovely one! How are you?
I’m holding on.
Honestly, when I think about myself and how I am feeling, it seems irrelevant in our current climate.
Yet, last night as I was soaking in my ritual clearing bath, I felt immensely sad. I was reminiscing about how the events of my day unfolded. I had plans to shop for food for our house as well as for my parents.
I met my Dad in the grocery store parking lot, and as I placed the bags of groceries into his car, I leaned in to hug him. I paused. Sadness overflowing in me, I held back my tears.
Holding our loved ones is a natural occurrence, but in our current situation it’s tainted with questions of “what if ?”
In that split second, standing there with my Dad, being reminded again of just how grateful I am to be his daughter, I realized how much I just wanted him to hold me and tell me that everything was going to be alright. For a moment I was my child self, wanting and needing his unconditional love. Isn’t it funny how holding someone can do all that?!
In the absence of physical contact with others, my thoughts began to wonder if my faith could take this heaviness I’ve been holding away.
That got me to thinking about how much I’ve adored holding the people I love and care for. Holding my belly when I was pregnant, and when my babies were born, holding them closely when they nursed, or holding the newborn foster baby I picked up from the hospital.
I’ve been holding my whole life.
The moment I held my precious grandbabies for the first time. And how my heart longs to hold them again right now. Holding my husband’s nanna’s hand, and my friend Jodi’s as they crossed over to Heaven.
Friends, family, and even clients receive a tender hug before they leave their session.
As my thoughts dove deeper into the depth of my being I held myself in the midst of not being able to hold others in the familiar physical manner as I had before Covid19 was a part of our everyday life.
This adjustment of holding space for my loved ones in new forms has given way to deep seated emotional pains I had not realized were within my being. I’m doing my absolute best to be present in these feelings, to look at them lovingly and embrace whatever lack, pain, or despair that rise upward into my consciousness.
My truth is, today I am holding it together the best I can with the tools and resources that I am fortunate enough to have.
I hope you are doing the same.
The truth is that with the uncertainty of our current world climate, feeling overwhelmed is a given.. The good news is that you can heal and hold your overwhelm with love based tools and methods for connecting with your Angels, and receive gentle, loving guidance from the Divine realm.
I wonder, what it is that you are holding onto to keep you grounded and feeling safe in these uncertain times. Share in the comment section below who it is that you are missing holding!
I am sharing with you a valuable resource from my Angel Membership, intended to support and hold you in this unprecedented time. I know as I am feeling the need to be held and supported, I imagine you are too.
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Have a question or concern?
You see, I am human, not above or below you or anyone else. I am me, a spiritual, loving women who talks to Angels and loved ones on the other side of the veil, and the real me has pains and sorrows like yours, only different, because they are my very own reflections of personal fears. Your pains look differently, feel differently and are different, because well, they belong to YOU. I have passions and desires as you do as well. We are unique, yet alike because we are Gods children.
I love you because of who you are, period end of story. It’s a beautiful part of what make me, me. The gift God has bestowed in my being that I am able to see your true soul identity, you at your highest soul-self.
Truth be told though, I don’t always like the things you choose, and, thats ok, because you have your very own life experiences and journey to be on. You are a lovely and authentically brilliant soul who is deserving of love and respect.
But here in the land of human beings, love and respect are not easily shared because of that rat bastard Shmego’s fearful tones. You see, the jealousy, judgmental tones that fly around are similar to knives, and just like a knife will do when it is in use, it cuts up the love into little itty bitty pieces. Pieces that are so small they barely resemble love, in fact these pieces of micro love now bare a price tag in order to be felt. This is what is known as conditional love. Love that costs, which my friend is not love at all but fear, and thats how sneaky that little Shmego guy is, he will have you believe this is the right way to love.
Here is what is truth, God says that his love for you is eternal and unconditional. He loves you the same at all times. If you are feeling less than, God loves you. If you mess up, God loves you. If you fall, God loves you. If you cheat, lie, steal… guess what…God loves you. His love is endless and always the same, steady and true.
What I have witnesses as a Medium in sessions with my clients is how challenging it is for people in pain to experience love, pure unconditional love the pain becomes the stopping point to loving others completely and without judgement. The memories of the past become the pains in today.
The Angels have taught me that pain is emotional, physical and energetic. Pain is a reminder of something that has gone wrong within ones life.
The Angels say that the when you become isolated and separated from the Divine fear will manifest in many ways to keep you from the truth of Divine love. Therefore if one is suffering with an illness and in a great deal of pain and makes the choice to go it alone, separated from the original love the tone of the illness becomes louder and more focused on the fear rather than on the love. The love will lead you to the answers of why and what your souls lesson is in this instant. In truth the illusionary world fear creates for you is not an easy one to shatter and break free from. Yet it is easy at the same time. Crazy, right? This is because of free-will and your willingness to choose love over fear. It is not a one time choice though rather it is a moment by moment choice to allow love to heal and shatter the fear. It is also your willingness to recognize the lesson within the pain.
Pain when left to grow and flourish over time your thoughts are isolated and focus on only the pain and not the healing. Healing is not simplistic yet when you are willing to do the work, no matter how emotional and challenging the work is, your soul reveals the pains starting point. That is the key to all healing. Though healing can involve the soul leaving this plane to continue work on the other side it is essential for the souls journey in this life to heal the wounds and learn the valuable lessons so the soul can evolve to the next stage of its journey.
Self love is the soul can connect with the pain outside of the stories and fear. Self love ignites the souls purpose and clarity. Self love is your connection to Divine truth and Divine love. The fear begins to fade away as self love opens the pathway for your courage and strength which in turn leads you to the pains source. Your courage to stand in self love becomes the focal point and leads to the fears fading away. This gives you the strength to move forward with a clear path to learning and evolving in your souls truths. The resistance of fear will still challenge you, but your self love will hold you and restore you.
Here is what you can take away from this Angelic message and lesson on pain, pain can tell you a story if you open and listen to it. Pain can be healed. Pain is a lesson waiting for you to connect with it.